please, I beg you, don’t even think about hurting yourself!
You are more than just his girlfriend. Don’t make yourself dependent on him. The world has a lot more to show you. He is not your world and he is not the reason you are alive! I’m sure there are many other people in this world who need you and they will help you to get through this like he is doing. Family, friends, and if you would come off anon I would be pleased if we could talk some more :)
And for now he is still at your side, why are you so scared that he will leave you? I really can understand your situation I miss someone so hard that I think I can’t live without him, but life is more!!! I promise you! Please come off anon :*